Wednesday, July 04, 2007

Randomness




Just some thoughts...

We stopped by my mother's grave a week or two ago. someone had glued a sleeping cherub on the grave stone. This place never seems real to me. Even after ten years. I introduced Caden to this place again because I want him to know he had another grandma. One that would have loved him a whole lot. I miss you, mom!!!


I've been stressed out for the past two weeks because I am the acting Coordinator while my boss recovers from surgery. The good side is I've shown that I can handle the stress at work multiple times over and they have a lot of confidence in me.


I miss my friend Swanger! You know the guy who would watch cool movies with my wife and I and sit down and play music with an acoustic guitar and my djembe. We'd laugh, act stupid, and be ourselves(or so I thought). Now, he only visits certain people when he comes to town. Why doesn't he visit us anymore?


I deleted The Drummer's Almanac blog. What a waste of time! I thought I would use it as a teaching tool once I had students again, but I've only had one response so far. I may not be teaching anytime soon. I thought about going to the music store downtown and asking if they could use a drum instructor. Who knows?


I am so ready to dig into scripture. I can feel myself getting hungry and wanting more when I read. The Lord has been faithful to me even when my faith has floundered. He has shown himself and puts me in my place as I question, doubt, fear or worry. He has my family in His hands.

I have been envious of those with money. I find myself scheming and plotting to make money somehow. It's not healthy because I lose focus on Him. We are facing changes to our budget that we can't control and we are already stretched really thin. There isn't much more we can take away without losing the "privilege" of eating. It's not a "right" you know!?! Time to perservere.


I called Donovan this week and he surprised me by putting his brother, Rich, on the phone. We talked for a while and had a good conversation. We don't talk much or see each other very often. He is living around our area now and wants to get together and jam. This excites me because I love to play music with him and Donovan. This is also an answer to prayer as I have been asking God for a guitarist to come around and want to jam. I also threw in that I would love to have Rich back around. It wasn't my idea totally. God knew what I wanted before I did.


In the morning, I'm going to Dave and Kelly's house to help them finish their stairwell. I will be high on a ladder, and enjoying myself as I help a friend.


We are going to my in-laws in the afternoon for a cookout and waterfights. It's been a tradition since I first met Casey(nine years ago!) We may go and watch fireworks later, but we are trying to save our gas.

2 comments:

Scott Donnelly said...

D.

I feel you on so many levels... keep the Faith and continue fighting the GOOD fight.

Love ya'

Cheryl said...

It's always weird going to see my mom's grave in western MI...I know what you mean....