Confession
I recently confessed something to my wife that I had been holding onto for a year. What it is doesn't matter except that I held onto it for far too long.
Through the past year, I was wrestling with myself and with God telling me to confess. I knew in my heart if I confessed that He would take care of everything else. He would redeem me and I would be restored. But it's not easy to go forward when all you're doing is walking backward. It's like I could see Him, but I just kept moving away. He kept beckoning during every service on Sunday. And I mean every service. He didn't let up. I knew it would have to come down to confession.
Psalm 32:5 Then I acknowledged my sin to you and did not cover up my iniquity. I said, "I will confess my transgressions to the LORD "— and you forgave the guilt of my sin. Selah
Finally, as I confessed, I felt relieved and horrible all at the same time. I was ready to cry because it was such a burden off my shoulders, yet it felt so good to remove it.
My wife has been gracious. Even though she has a hard time understanding she still shows she loves me and is willing to fight for me. I thank God for her. She has to put up with a lot from me.
Proverbs 28:13 He who conceals his sins does not prosper, but whoever confesses and renounces them finds mercy.
Now, things have become so much more open. I feel like God is inviting me to come closer. I've had the opportunity to worship him more freely. My worship team has experienced growth and unity even in the midst of adversity.
Isaiah 59:1 Surely the arm of the Lord is not too short to save, nor his ear to dull to hear.
