...instead of what I want! A phrase we use at work to let our residents know they can ask for help. For me, God spoke to me through 1 Kings 1-3.
Have it my way? ...I don't think so!
Adonijah, David's firstborn, thought he ought to be king, so he had a feast in his own honor proclaiming the throne. He presumed David would hand it to him because of birth order. He took the throne for granted.
Bathsheba goes to David and reminds him of the promise he made to make Solomon the King of Judah and Israel. Solomon ended up taking the throne and handled it with great care. The Lord told him to ask for whatever he wanted and he would receive it. So, Solomon asked for wisdom and discernment. The Lord gave him discernment like no other and riches to make him stand out among all other kings before him or after.
Adonijah, on the other hand kept asking for what he wanted even when it wasn't his to have. Solomon had him put to death.
Lately, I've been worrying about our finances. I know God has our back. He hasn't failed yet. But in my humanness, I lose faith because I look down the road and I don't see how we are going to afford things. I even broke my own covenant by asking God to give me money. Not just money, but a lot of money. Not that my heart was in the wrong place, but my focus surely was. I know in my heart that I want the will of God for my family. Whatever that looks like!
It's my head that thinks differently.
Solomon had everything he needed and more because he chose to ask for discernment. He wanted to rule justly and honor his father and Lord.
I also asked for discernment. I think there is no better gift to ask for than that. I want to know His will more than anything and that concern has been an ongoing struggle with my faith. I also know that God puts in charge who he wants and that is an honor all in itself. As for me and my house...