Strong is the Sojourn Soul
I wrote a song not too long ago, titled "Sojourn Soul", based on the changes that occurred in the aftermath of a few nuclear bombs that were dropped on my life. Sound depressing? I was... at least for a while. Instead of throwing ashes on my head and tearing my clothes, I found myself sitting in the dark wondering what the heck I was going to do with my life. I had no direction and no clue what was about to happen to me. I was on a different plateau, spiritually, mentally, emotionally, and physically. I bet you're wondering what those bombs were that seemingly dropped out of the sky and took my life from me. Well, the first was the realization that I didn't love the girl I was living with after I had already proposed marriage. It was a time of anxiety and fear and I knew I had to let her know my heart. In the midst of this knowledge I was carrying around, I found out that my mother had colon cancer. She had found out during a routine visit to her Ob/Gyn. I was so shocked that I couldn't feel the weight of it's burden. The wedding was being planned and we were only two weeks away when I broke the news to my fiance. She was crushed!!! It was the most sickening feeling and all I could do was curl up in a ball and try to sleep from the pain. Needless to say we cancelled the wedding. My mom passed away a few weeks later. I think losing the house hurt worse than calling off the wedding. It was a place where I was safe and I could be creative. I taught myself how to draw comics and I had my own music room. So, what was a sojourn soul to do, but move back in with his dad. It was a major ego blow. I was 23 years old and I had to move back home. It was also hard to adjust with my dad because he was also hurting. This is when I noticed I was sitting in the dark... lost! This is when things changed. If I wanted to drag this story out I could tell you all of the details, but then I would have nothing to blog, so here's the short form. I met my future wife and reacquainted myself with some old friends who introduced me to the Lord. At first I was guarded and unsure, but once He revealed Himself to me I was lost once again. Only this time I was found in his arms. A sojourner is a person that moves around from place to place. I am a sojourner moving from one place to the next in my ultimate pursuit of trying to live a spirit-filled life in Christ. I am moving on......
Strong is the sojourn soul
Strong is the sojourn soul
And the thing that keeps him grounded
is the past that drove him away
He's still moving on
Strong is the sojourn soul
And the thing that keeps him grounded
is the past that drove him away
He's still moving on
1 comment:
Strength is found in vulnerability. I love that you are writing your heart.
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