Healing For The Next Battle

Ready for the fight? .....yeah....
I feel like my walk with God has been more of an uphill struggle with little footing. My legs are getting numb. A lot of the reason is that I don't believe in myself. My confidence is shorter than my stride. I've been continuously fighting myself because I let myself believe that I'm not good enough.

I'm getting tired of the fight!

I know God has shown me more than I can grasp, but I forget or lose faith. I let myself slip back to the same old places and let go of the new ground I just took. I don't plant my flag and raise the banner. I do keep striving and that has kept me in the game.

I've been here too many times and I know that I have let it happen. It makes me think I love to feel this way. I like to feel miserable and sorry for myself.

The good news is that I have heard from others that they see a leader in me. It's not that I need affirmation from them to make myself feel better, but I needed to hear someone elses perspective to know that it's there. God used them to let me hear it.

It helped me heal for the next battle.

"Take your flunky and dangle!"

"...dangle!" What a great visual. Think about what that word implies and then put it in the context of an insult. Not an easy thing maybe, but it is interesting.

Our good friend Shawna came over yesterday and hung out with my family. We made it our movie night this week instead of the usual Sunday. This time we had a good time listening and dancing (well, Caden and I were, anyway) to Sade and other goodies on my iTunes.

Then we put the boys to bed and settled in the living room and watched one of the best mob movies out there. Not many people remember it, but it has some of the best dialogue ever!!! It was made by the Cohen brothers who brought us Raising Arizona, Fargo, Hudsucker Proxy, and O' Brother Where Art Thou. It is none other than Miller's Crossing.



The dialogue is definately original and catchy and the plot is deep with a twist. I don't know what it is about mob movies that just suck me in and hook me to the end. This one has everybody in it, too. Gabriel Byrne, Albert Finney, John Turturro, Steve Buscemi, and even a cameo from Sam Raimi.

The Cohen brothers have an eclectic body of work and, on occasion, tie their movies together with locations such as businesses or apartment complexes like the Barton Arms which is in Miller's Crossing and Barton Fink. Hudsucker Industries is where H.I. works in Raising Arizona and where Hudsucker Proxy is based. There are probably more ties than I have discovered, but they keep me coming back.

This is definately a reccomendation for my friends to watch this movie. I think you will enjoy. We did.